Reaching through it...

I'm reaching through something. Praying..talking to God, friends, my mom, my sister. My emotions are so befuddled right now. I can't even compose coherently. There's a great poem in this situation. A great cry, a great story and lesson but right now all I have is the ache but I'm reaching though it..not fighting too much because I don't want to suppress...this reality of how I'm feeling. I'm breathing, at times deeply and at other times rapidly - lacking rhythm. I am on the brink of something amazing but until then I'm floating in a sea of despair.