TheMusingsofME

Saturday, August 11, 2018

Wednesday, August 1, 2018

I AM Flying Through the Trees

I was in the Mayan forest in Mexico living my best life. What a luxury it is to be alive!

Tuesday, July 24, 2018

I'm not sure why I've returned and what this new arrival will net. What I am certain of is that I need to follow the current urge to try because I've been doing this intermittently and without any solid commitment for years. Of course, I wonder, what can I offer new and exciting to a crowded space but I offer me. I am my own it factor. The me in my content is my wow factor. What will I share? Random ish per ush but also some concentrated processsing. Cause I've lost then gained 60lbs and lost a parent, moved and contemplated everything that needs to be new. So, yeah. That's gonna happen.

Sunday, July 22, 2018

iM back

Twas indeed a beautiful birthday. It was simple and exquisite in details. Here's a sneak peek.

Unico 20.87 is magic.

Sunday, September 24, 2017

I'm With Kap

What a time to be alive. I say that tongue and cheek and with full-blown exhaustion. I am a human living a human existence, dealing with my own shit. I am an American living in a country led by an imbecile. I am a woman of color enjoying all that means while fighting against all that it begets. But I will not break.

Monday, December 31, 2012

How It Feels

I was reading ameliapontes.com ( as I often do) and I was inspired (as I often am).

2012 wasn't a banner year but I survived it and when pressed, I found some good in it. Some accomplishments and some bucket list moments. I'm staying in tonight. Sure, I can go out and dazzle myself with New Years Eve banter and drinking and "fun" but I'm having my sort of fun. Fun w/o pressure to have "fun". There'll be plenty of Rose', a Portlandia marathon, and Pizza. Also, there will be calm. I couldn't be happier.

2013
I resolve to:
Honor the me in me. Particularly the bits that I feel are unrefined, not well read, loud, silly, etc. Those are the things that make me. I won't chide myself anymore because I haven't read any Fitzgerald. Instead, I'll just read some. In fact, I just bought Tender Is The Night.

I resolve to:
Be present. I love to look to the future and waft through the past. I zone out when things aren't comfortable. I read the ends of books and surf the net while watching movies, sometimes looking for a synopsis. No more. I have to present. Even when things feel over my head. Even when my absence is the shield of comfort I need. Even when my attention wanes. I vow to be present through discomfort and uneasiness and insecurity. What can be better than the present?

I resolve to:
Lighten up. I spend too much time punishing myself for past deeds and missed opportunities. I Monday Morning Quarterback my life, replaying decisions and words said until I'm blue in the face...and heart. It's over. And when something's over, you should be done with it.

I resolve to:
Take chances. I say yes. More alone time and risky endeavors and get up and go that leads to get up and go. I'll be a better woman for it. Also, when I took a chance this year, and took my birthday trip alone, I had a joyous experience. In fact, it was my moment in 2012.

New Motto: Je ne regette rien.